April 25th, 2008

Subject: smiley Time: 12:00 am

Things are better now x

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April 7th, 2008

Subject: . Time: 08:19 pm

I cannot stop crying everything is fucked up

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March 20th, 2008

Subject: I will not forget you. Time: 09:24 pm

Back in swad for a few days. Just till tuesday or Wednesday I imagine :]. Mums been so lonely. She doesnt say it but i know shes happy to have lots of people in the house again. Today Luke drove me here, it was so nice. Usually its an hour dragging with my dad talkin about work and how my brother has pissed him off in different ways this week.  This was nice :]. Beatles love album and chocolate eclaire sweets hehe. We didnt take the motorways as he hasnt been on them yet - i wasnt going to make him. The scenic route was far nicer anyways. gave him a short tour of my house, and we played with my brother's dog for a while. Shes so cute, just abit of a spaz. This week has been so lovely. We've been in this bubble, away from almost everyone. Not going out just hiding in bed with dvds, guitar hero battles :D and other things.  I think its good im home for a few days though. This clingy dependance isnt attractive on me, and i get forgetful.  Spending all weekend with mum. Have to keep her entertained tomorrow as its her and dad's wedding aniversary. If hes got any brains about him he'll get in contact as I dont think theyve spoken in a couple of days.  Out with my lovely swad friends on Saturday night; derby n the like. On a different note, I spoke to Stu tonight. We havent chatted much since I told him about Luke. He told me hes into someone. I wanted to be selfish as he was and respond with "IM GOING TO KILL MYSELF" but i didnt, and asked him about it. Its so strange him asking me for relationship advice and me feeling more than comfortable giving it. But i couldnt be happier for him in total honesty. I gave Luke Blankets to read :]. I hope he loves it as I do. xx

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March 16th, 2008

Subject: I dont even mind the beard. Time: 09:04 pm

Seems reaction my artwork wasn't as positive as I would of liked. A low C. Cant get past those fucking C's. On the plus side, Luke and I are an official couple. Im crazy about this one. Cant seem to let go of him at all. I was dubious about being in another relationship. My time with stu jaded me so badly. I was so bitter and just didnt see the point in being with someone when selfish seemed the way forward. Im still selfish; Need to get out of this single mind frame.Got to consider others etc. I dont want to make the same mistakes.  x

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March 9th, 2008

Subject: two words. Time: 02:00 am Current Mood: smitten

Got my artwork in on time. Very positive reactions to it all. Downloaded Ghosts. Only one more day before easter holiday/nice time off of lectures Weighed myself earlier and have lost another half a stone. Making total loss a whole stone now. But I dont care about any of it. Infact I only have 2 words to say to you. Luke Barney He amazes me.

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